Lulu Reyes

what im honestly thinking/feeling about the situation right now.

I don't really know. I hate what she did to me, I'm not mad anymore. I'm actually more depressed than mad. I mean I hate being a burden (it is the worst thing I could ever become) and she pointed that out that I was a burden. That for that specific moment I was troubling. And I just hate that. Not just that but she called me pathetic and that I was just in need of the extra attention. It makes me feel that I actually was a burden. It made me think more of what happened and made me realize that she's right. i am a burden.

It feels horrible to be called pathetic or to have your professor point out your flaws. Especially the flaws you yourself hate.

I'm really sorry for being a burden, really. I didn't mean to do it. and I promise that never again will I do that.

I was first considering reporting this woman for personally attacking me on an event I couldn't control but I now realize that it's college. I got hurt? so what. I always get hurt by different people everyday but it doesn't mean I have to do anything about it.

People are going to be mean, people are going to hate and even judge you but when we stop trying to fight thinking that were right and all. Maybe the love will start seeping in. I know this sort of says that I'm weak or that I have no backbone. but I don't care anymore.

I'd rather be happy without all this reporting drama. Maybe in time if it seems more advisable to report her I will but for now when she only called me pathetic and implied that I was KSP I wont.