Fear of boys maybe?

So boy asked me out again. Okay, lets call him Hanz. So Hanz asked me out to Bannaple and surprise surprise I said yes... then no. After, my feelings turned into jello and I started turning into a girl.

I have then realized a lot of things. The main thing is that I am a complete and utter coward. But anywayssss here's a list. Like you didn't expect this from me.

• I'm scared of what would happen if I start to like him and in the end he doesn't. That right there is one of my greatest fears. Being alone because he might not end up liking me. That there. That there.
• I'm scared of what would happen if I don't end up liking him the way he wants me to like him. I'm so scared that I'll just end up hurting someone else. Someone who is good to me. Someone who could've been my friend.
• I'm scared of ending up alone. As always.

My brain's not functioning well. It's 9:55. I'm probably sleeping at 1 today.