on tomorrow's sunshine

it rained today. it hasn't been raining for a while. and this morning it was actually pretty sunny. but then it rained. and amazingly it fit with what i felt.

today i felt so betrayed and disappointed. I trusted people too much and ended up disappointed. at first, i was confused. but then i realized that i was just. done. i didn't feel the need to linger on the feelings that don't matter to anyone. but after thinking about it even more. it made me so depressed. i felt used and weak. like no one really cared. it was obvious that i was really troubled today but i didn't really feel the love i wanted to feel. i wanted a hug. a long one. the hugs that make you think "i am useful to this person and i am not going to leave them"

im gay for being depressed about this. i know. please don't judge me. i'll be happy again.

i was depressed and disappointed. it rained.

maybe tomorrow will be different.

maybe tomorrow the sun will shine.

for me, if it isn't too much to ask.